Friday, August 21, 2009

In The Dark

I sometimes feel like I'm simply wandering around in a forest, at night, only darkness around me. I don't know if I'm going to walk into a tree, possibly step on some wild animal's tail or if I'm just walking right next to a steep cliff.
The darkness doesn't usually scare me. I have to have complete darkness to fall asleep.
However, there are those times, when I'm in the darkness and I wonder, what else is out there. What could I encounter?
It doesn't help that so many horror stories take place in the dark, the sociopath hiding behind the rock, waiting to pounce.

But, the dark also causes me to notice things I wouldn't notice in the light. Like the stars or the crickets singing.
{I met a guy once and, after I had made a comment about the crickets being really loud, he stated that he liked it. That it was their way of singing to and praising God. I have thought differently of crickets ever since.}
Sometimes the darkness simply causes me to slow down, to really think about the next step and what my surroundings are.

So, as I stumble in the darkness, I hope that I make the right steps. And I know the morning will come.
It always does.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Of A Man I Can Understand

Okay, so I'm sure the title makes it sound like I'm looking for a relationship.
That is not the case.
However, I am looking for a man who will be consistant. Is that so hard to find? A man who I can actually understand 100% of the time, that doesn't make me want to scream or pull out my hair or join a convent?

Let me explain:
I've constantly been told by men and women alike- take men at their word. If they say they're not interested, THEY'RE NOT INTERESTED. After finally "getting" it, a little into college, I decided to just take guys at their word. If they want something, they'll go for it. If they don't, they won't. Easy enough right?
I thought I figured it out- y'know, women read into everything while men just say what they mean.
#1- So not true. There's always that one emotional guy who will say what you want to hear or will say what he wants to hear.
#2- Men are not the best communicators. I know that everyone knows this, but if you really think about it, as women, we are trusting men on their ability to communicate what they want. But they're horrible at communication... but that's how we're supposed to understand them... anyone else confused?

I saw the movie "He's Just Not That Into You" awhile ago and loved it. It was perfect in how it showed how women work vs. how men work.
But, I think it also showed my main frustration with the whole situation with guys. Hold on for a second while I try to explain-

So guys tell us to just take them at their word.
But we've also been told our WHOLE lives that actions speak louder than words.
SO- the situation becomes really frustrating when:
A guy doesn't express any romantic interest in a girl, telling her that he likes her or wants to get to know her better
he's constantly flirting with her and even her friends say that there's a spark and he pays special attention to her.
Well, what's a girl to do?

I've come to the decision for myself- the men say they want to be taken at their word? Fine. I will. However, they better not have a problem if I start to express interest somewhere else.

{I'm not saying that women aren't confusing as well- we can be just as guilty as the men. This is simply something I've been mulling over}