is it fair to even walk into a situation that i feel like i know the outcome?
if i'm already thinking i'm going to be disappointed, what's the point?
maybe it's the part of me that wants to be proven wrong.
i want to be wrong.
and if i'm proven right... am i allowed to still feel sadness in the disappointment?
i walked into it, eyes wide open.
probably seeing more of the situation, knowing more, than i think i do.
and will i be forced to come to terms about who i am?
even though dear friends have assured me it's not just me
i seem to be the common denominator in these
yet i keep myself open, the real fear being that one day i'll stop having an open mind.